Sunny is one guy other's envied.
He was born into a well connected family and has always gotten everything he ever wanted since he was a boy.
With me growing up at the same neighborhood where he was, I saw Sunny as someones definition of being "cool".
He attracts people in droves and was always visited by equally "cool" people in town.
He got high marks on the local university where he goes and was even named valedictorian of his class.
He drove a fancy car and went to a hi-end university in Manila to study law.
One summer I was back home we got to be on the same party of a mutual friend. We got along fine and it became the start of a budding friendship which we had.
I was right. He was indeed cool and I learned a lot from him just by talking.
He would go on about his views on political issues,latest gadgets, courtships, his music preferences and as always he made perfect sense.
He was like my idol and I was glad I had him as a friend.
But there was one flaw on his almost perfect persona.
He goes wild when he's drunk.
One moment when he's sober he could be the most charming person you'd ever met and you would even think that his personality bordered on being shy.
But once he got a drop more than he should, he becomes a totally different person that any mother would be ashamed of.
For sometime that his outbursts became frequent (since he loved to drink), there are few of us loyal friends who extended our patience.
At some point I believed he knew what he was doing all along and I just couldn't accept the fact that he could be so brutal not only to all other people around him but most especially to us, his friends.
Then one day none of his friends bothered to call upon him.
Sunny was left alone.
For several years that I left town I heared less about Sunny and his escapades.
I would hear bits of news about his outburst and I couldn't help but feel sadly for him.
He was after all my idol.
A person I had known to be intelligent,witty,funny.. not some bum that people are making fun of now.
It saddens me to see him waste his life away.
It saddens me that people are afraid to be near him (and that includes me) out of fear that you might hurt them.
We wanted to help you Sunny.
We really do..
Me and all other friends who once stood by you.
But we need you to help yourself first.
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As people age.. a.lot of questions arise as to why someones not married and why they chose to remain single.
For others..questions or statements like "ang tanda na nya di kaya siya nahihiya sa pinagagawa niya?" often followed.
I have seen situations where some engaged in questionable affairs but like they say.. "buhay nila yon and they can do whatever they want" which is actually true.
One story caught my attention though.
Roma is a striking lady.She had learned to wear make up at an early age thus afforded her many suitors behind her.She had boyfriends in the past but for sometime that I had known her,The truth remained unknown why she remained single all this time.
Once I asked her this inevitable question why she remained unmarried when in fact, she can easily have one judging by the way she looked.
She timidly answered me "I am happy being single and if being married means added headache to me then I would rather stay single all my life than suffer the consequences.."
"But don't you wish you had someone to spend your life with? I mean growing old and all will be a lot better I think if you had someone to turn to in times you needed company.." i asked her again.
I have my parents..i have my nieces and nephews.. and besides I often saw my friends having marital problems..marriages not working out,wives beaten blue..blah blah blah...
OK I got her..
She doesn't really want to talk about it..
So I gave her a break..
And in time I totally forgotten all about our talk regarding her marital status..
Not until last evening.
Someone casually mentioned the reason why she remained single..
One night Roma was chatting with her boyfriend on cam when she decided to break up with him.
The boyfriend was pleading with her but she was adamant and stucked with her decision..
Then the unexpected happened.
The boyfriend pulled a gun and shot himself in the head.
Live on cam.
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Kanina naisipan kong bumaba ng basement para kainin ang cup noodles ko at nang makapag yosi na rin saglit..
Naabutan ko dun si joy habang nakikinig sa kanyang ipod.
Matagal ko na ring kakilala si joy although di na kami nagkikita lately kasi na assign na siya sa ibang unit...
nakita ko rin na may hawak siyang yosi habang bumubuga ng usok kasabay ang tila malalim na buntong hininga..
"ngayon lang to kuya kasi depressed ako.." pauna niyang sabi sa kin.
Maya maya nag ring ang cellphone niya so hinayaan ko na muna siyang kausapin kung sino man ang tumawag sa kanya at binaling ko na lang ang atensiyon ko sa cup noodles ko habang mainit pa..
Nung maubos ko na ang noodles..napansin ko na umiiyak siya..
"joy ok ka lang ba?" tanong ko sa kanya..
"hindi kuya..."
"hindi ko kasi alam kung pano ko sasabihin sa parents ko na buntis ako!"..
I was thinking of some comforting words to tell her pero ang lumabas sa bibig ko e "sa una lang yan mahirap..just get it done and everything will follow kasi wala na tayo magagawa kasi andiyan na yan.." sabay sindi ng isang stick ng marlboro.
"kuya naninigarilyo ka rin pala?.."
"Oo joy..."
"pag depressed lang din..."
Sabay tawa kami pareho...
Pero sana nga ganun lang talaga kadali ang lahat.
Na pagkaubos mo ng isang stick ng sigarilyo..ubos na rin ang lahat ng depression na nararamdaman mo..
PBA09oqonrr4
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I have a new text mate..
I only had two messages from her so far,
but that was enough to make me feel young again..
to be alive despite the fading hope that I sometimes felt.
here's the first message I got from her...
"Hi daddy madjik duty kaba ? Or walang kang pasok meron akong pink na cellpone kaya naka- text po ako dahil dahil po bigay sa ako ni mommy & mwah!!!!!.at ingat!!!!"
It's from kaye and I will always treasure this first ever SMS that she sent me.
Kita mo yan at napa blog ako bigla despite my busy schedules..
So being the proud daddy that I am I showed the text message to everyone who cared to look or those who are not so busy with their own pathetic lives..
I was beyond caring...
I am happy!
at moment ko yun! LOLz :z
I was late with my response..
and a second text from her followed...
"Tulog na ako zzzzzz!! May pasok ako wag kana mag-text ha si mòmmy nalang pls wag na! Aaaaaa.!!wag ring cellpone "
ganon??hehehehe!
goodnight kaye..
bukas na lang uli..
PS
sa susunod dun kana sa roaming ko mag text ha kasi mauubos agad ang load mo..
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